log 31: fun

paralysis

Sometimes I forget how to relax and have fun. This past week Diablo 4 came out. My friends and I have been waiting for just about a decade for the next release in the Diablo series. I have many memories of playing through the night grinding our characters to max level. Now, finally, we had the opportunity to do it again. But I was paralyzed by this feeling of “I can’t” or “shouldn’t” because now I’m an adult who needs to focus on his business and product. It didn't feel right playing games for a whole weekend. Sometimes I am glad that I am able to sit down and focus on my work for the whole day, seven days a week. But sometimes it feels like a curse. The moment I let go a little and start to have fun it feels like I am wasting my time. I know that many people also feel like they’re never working hard enough. It’s something that I am definitely still working on because I’ve written about this before. In the end, I decided to just play, and at the time I’m writing this post. The game STILL isn’t out. My friends and I were able to grind to the max level before the early access even ended. What came out of it? Fun, a good memory, and surprisingly, a couple of new ideas for my app. But most importantly, I made a choice and followed through. Start to finish, no quitting along the way.